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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Why did i forgive my father ?

So whats the point in blame.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My life is so biszare .

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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One cannot live in the past .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

How do people develop stage 4 cancer without noticing until it’s too late?

It was going to be , some day.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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I never cut or harmed myself..

He knew the spot.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was very sick at this time too.

How do I complain on a boy coming to marriage with me without my involvement despite no connection with him though he had an illegal affair?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why do some people dislike rap and hip hop music despite there being poor quality music in every genre?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

How do I overcome attachment issues?

Who then, do I blame.?

I have no regrets .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Would this be the day?

We all went to grammer schools

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

(And it was in our own minds.)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She was in good health!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

This is soul school!.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We were not on the streets..

Ive learnt so much.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

All the time i was locked up.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was seconnd youngest,

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i do to all so called friends.?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Put me off passion for life!!

But it wasn’t much.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She married twice! .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

What did i know ?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

When she asked me how she looked .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She loved him until the end.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I think the readers, may guess!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I will be 64.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Comes on , in middle age.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She found it foreign!.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

So, i spoilt her more .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was 9 years of age.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I write beautiful poetry .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was scared of men, in general

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I said to her

My family never makes their pension either.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I couldn’t, believe it.

But, we were locked up after school.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I could never make a relationship work though!

I waited trembling.

Im still living with it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I don,t even have a pension.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i lived it daily.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She wouldn,t have been !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!